Saturday, March 08, 2003
Well Thursday went ok for Dilen.... Mommy had an off day... She went to class at 11:30 only to find no other cars or students... DARN there was a forum about achieving peace in the middle east on the main campus I really wanted to attend and forgot about.... *sigh* Oh well, will have to do something else to earn extra credit for class... And now I have to wait til Tues for my test grade... What can you do... BUT I did get my new puter up and almost fully running... just need to install a few more little tiny programs... My next chore will be to attempt to retrieve my data from my old hard drive... I really really would hate to lose all my pictures and recipes among other things..
Friday was a long day for me... I didn't get too much sleep Thursday and then had to work that night... it was a busy night as they all are becoming lately... So no cat nap there... Friday day I DID manage to get some sleep but still tired... Friday night I returned to work... of course an hr before work E decided to throw a tantrum and become a MAJOR AH.... needless to say he just HAD to play his mind game and deny me the use of "his" car.... so I took a cab and walked the 3.5 blocks from the main gate to my bldg... Lord ONLY knows what really set him off but I full believe part of it is that he didn't take his meds Thursday night and of course he's still drinking and that alone makes him a complete AH....
Well it's now Saturday morning and I really have to get the dishes finished and bring the house under minor control before I go attempt to get MY car running (without E's help as I figured it would end up being) so that I don't have to rely on him for a ride.... The boys are are playing nicely and of course E is passed out/sleeping or whatever in the back room.... *sigh* Just when I think we are making progress HE managed to set us back again.... I have some serious relationship evaluating to do today.... I can't keep living like this and while I have my faults - somewhat lazy, procratinator, bad house keeper and impulsive spender I don't deserve the treatment I get from E... and the boys don't deserve to have to live with him and his attitudes and screwed up reasoning.... Til next time....
Friday was a long day for me... I didn't get too much sleep Thursday and then had to work that night... it was a busy night as they all are becoming lately... So no cat nap there... Friday day I DID manage to get some sleep but still tired... Friday night I returned to work... of course an hr before work E decided to throw a tantrum and become a MAJOR AH.... needless to say he just HAD to play his mind game and deny me the use of "his" car.... so I took a cab and walked the 3.5 blocks from the main gate to my bldg... Lord ONLY knows what really set him off but I full believe part of it is that he didn't take his meds Thursday night and of course he's still drinking and that alone makes him a complete AH....
Well it's now Saturday morning and I really have to get the dishes finished and bring the house under minor control before I go attempt to get MY car running (without E's help as I figured it would end up being) so that I don't have to rely on him for a ride.... The boys are are playing nicely and of course E is passed out/sleeping or whatever in the back room.... *sigh* Just when I think we are making progress HE managed to set us back again.... I have some serious relationship evaluating to do today.... I can't keep living like this and while I have my faults - somewhat lazy, procratinator, bad house keeper and impulsive spender I don't deserve the treatment I get from E... and the boys don't deserve to have to live with him and his attitudes and screwed up reasoning.... Til next time....
